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I had yet another quarrel with my mom again.

My patience for her is wearing out. It took a lot of restraint for the beast in me to lash out at her behaviour. Hear me out before commenting.

I was out on Saturday, going for a long awaited movie, KUNGFU PANDA, and its like a sold out crowd for that show I tell ya. So before I goes out, Mom was asking me if I will be home early and could go a trip in Jurong to get some dumplings from her friend, Auntie S.

I replied No. "I am not passing by and I will be home late."

She gave me an irritated look.

I take no heed of her behaviour and left the house.

So while enjoying the show, she called me again, I answered the 1st call, and told her I am watching a show, so please DO NOT CALL ME. She just think its nothing and doesnt even care if i am disturbing the nearby ppl who sat next to me.

"Your dad IS IN JURONG but he doesnt want to take the dumpling for me, Can you go or not?"

"NO! I am in vivocity and its very far from Jurong, even if i am home, it will be around 11pm already! "

-I promtly hang up-

I duno what goes on in her senile mind, I received 3 more calls in the midst of the movie, I totally ignored the vibrating and at the end of the show, I guess I dont really enjoy the gist of it.

So after the whole event in Vivicity, sure enough I got home at around 11pm and was exhausted from the long drive home.

Mom was up and she saw me entering the door, and said, 'hey its still early, Auntie S is not yet asleep, why dont u go and take for me?"

I was pretty pissed by her remark;
1) I am SO GODAMN TIRED FROM THE DRIVE HOME and she expects me to do an ABOUT-TURN TO JURONG just because she have her own agenda!??
2) HEr Husband refused to take the dumplings for her, when HE IS SO GODAMN CLOSE IN JURONG, I have to clear his shit?
3) My car IS NOT HER GODAMN PROPERTY, SHE Doesnt pay me a single cent, and every favour SHE ASKED, IS A FAVOUR, NOT AN ENTITLEMENT. Doesnt she understand this?

I replied coldly, "No, I am tired. I will get for you early morning tml'

So she starts her bitching again. the whole 2 hrs in the living room, she was talking to herself, and her useless hubby and her useless son, I had a fitful sleep that nite.

So her hubby got home at 7am in the morning again. She got up, and started ranting and raving at him. I nvr call him Dad anyway. Not for a long time since the incident. Even if we are in the same lift, we nvr spoke a word, just wait for the lift to take us to the desired floor and we entered the flat like strangers anyway. But enough of him.

I woke up to the sounds of rant and rave. I remember what I promised her. IT IS 8am in the morning when she made the godamn racket. I took my car keys and left the apartment. I was there in Jurong and forgotten Auntie S unit number.

I called home and asked for mom. Obviously she was having her menopause moment, and told her hubby to relay to me, THAT SHE IS USING WHITE RICE TO PRAY TO THE GOD, DONT NEED TO BRING THE DUMPLINGS BACK.

In a fit of anger, i replied, "DONT BITCH TO ME! I JUST WANT THE FUCKING UNIT NUMBER AND GIVE ME THAT!@ I BLOODY KNOW THE BLOCK NUMBER!"

I got the dumplings at last and was waiting for the lift to take me up, when she appeared in the lift with her shopping trolley. She muttered something about me being back so early, I wasnt listening, infact my eyes isnt evening looking at her, I got changed and went back to sleep.

Sometimes, i really envy those children with loving parents. There are somethings in life even money cannot buy. If I could take back the responsible parents again, I would glady go back in time.

She (Mom) had the most f**kedup temper i could ever bear. I told her umpteen times, "DONT ALWAYS WIN! you cannot always win! Sometimes you have to give and take! Why cant u understand there ISNT ALWAYS YOUR PROBLEMS WHICH IS A PRIORITY IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!"

There's Sichuan, there's Nargis! There's suppression and oppression in this fucking crazy world! Its not your dumplings to the Gods that can save the WHOLE WORLD YEAH!??

Like when she kept complaining that last TV which had discolored, and her hubby is too poor even to get the repairman? Who goes to her rescue? Its her fcking son that gets the 42" LCD FULL HD FOR HER IN THE LIVING ROOM! and what did she even say?

She just blabber to the relatives that her son is so capable and blah blah blah! ANY WORDS FOR ME!?? NONE!! she just thinks, YEAH, HER SON SHOULD PROVIDE FOR HER. WATEVER IT IS! HE WILL PROVIDE!?"

When the toile is clogged and chocked, who gets the repairman to replace the whole cistern system because her hubby is (again) too poor to give a shit abt it?!!

When the aircon is clattering like crazy in the nite and bothering her sleep (because the compressir unit is closer to her), who gets the AIrcon man in the house and does a full apartment aircon servicing!??

I think people should be grateful. regardless if you're a blood kin or not. Regardless if one is your parent or a stranger, you should be grateful. Dont even take ppl for granted, for one day, you will know, backlash will befall you.

I am tired. Just too tired talking about my parents. My family. My home. Home is nothing but a resting place for me. I have no sorrow, nor grief, nor happiness in this family. I was merely a permanent staying visitor in this household.

and then there're people around me. Work, social circle. I dont understand, why would ppl exploit me to the maximum just because I am an obliging person? I says YEs to almost everything, but dont they have a limit to how much this guy can do? Dont they even have a conscience that even tells them, 'look this guy did so much for you, perhaps you should cut him some slack?"

I have people who are not really auto in my circle currently. I should not name them. even if i do, you guys dont even know them anyway. I'm disappointed, I have been a good friend to some, but they take me like shit. I am really disappointed.

I had been depressed with a lot of things currently. mind is full of unfinished work and unreasonable customer. Like this sat, when I am home at 2pm, this ship owner from Jurong SHipyard gave me a call and told me that bolt size were wrongly given, (which my workers gave me) and asked me to do the calculations and give him an answer. I told him, "look its saturday, and we had already knocked off, cant you wait till Mon for it?"

he gave some bloody soap opera excuses why it cannot be done. I told him an answer, he doesnt buy it, he wants an email, or at least a written msg confirming this, " I HAVE NO TIME FOR YOU, MR M. "

- and i hung up on him-

I have no laptop to bring home, so even if he wants it, SORRY I BUEY GIAN LIAO! KNN, what kinda customer is this!??

So depressed ppl will normally do something he likes. I had a full dinner and took some potato chips. I usually eat chips when I sad. I gorge on food. else, I am very healthy, no snacks.

I went to Autobacs (bukit batok) for those who duno what Autobacs is, Its a car supermarket. Everything a car wanted and needed, Autobacs have it. Like Carrefour to the consumer,

I spurge on some long overdue decorations for my ride. Now my baby have stainless steel pedal cover (Razo branded) and I got an exhaust pipe cover for my small exhaust. My sis always say my ride have a small 'dick', NOW I HAVE A HUGE 'dick' enough to smack her. hehe

I got some hooks for my baby as well. always couldnt find a decent hook to hang my drinks or shopping bags when I needed one. seat belt stoppers (but couldnt find the usage for this stuff, why my friends find it useful, i am doubtful)

So the next ride pimping will be, ATF cooler, AT gearknob (stainless), handbrake cover (chrome), Steering wheel wrapping, digital meters for my ride. But that will be another time when my mood is damn bad, I'll go spurging again.

Honestly I should write to my company on the allowance for petrol. with the soaring prices of oil, Company should react to the market and revise accordingly. and not wait till the sales ppl scream "ta boleh tahan"

My allowance cant even last me the entire month. I usually have to top up with my own money for at least 2 more pumps.

That's enough ranting for now. I feel better already.

Till I blog again. Adious.

Sleepless

Its 4:25am, Says the Clock hanging on my wall.

I might have a problem sleeping today. Maybe I slept too early, or maybe I had too many things on my mind. Maybe I am too stressed. Or best yet, a whole package of everything.

Connie found another white hair on my head whilst at work today. That's like the 5th white hair I had plucked out so far in my life of working at G. I never grew any white hair whilst in PSM (my weight did grew over there though lolx) and my weight started descending gradually.

Work had been hectic. (who doesnt?) and counting towards to the 10th mth of my employment, I STILL DID NOT TAKE ANY HOLIDAYS OR LEAVE AS YET. I must really be sick or very workaholic.

Nothing much happened at work, except the ah nehs complained non-stop and my foreman like to asked me to join him in ToTo every now and then. Eric is getting more docile and basically its a fair weather for now.

Socially I fare a bit better (even for workaholic like me)
I managed to join Evon bdae bbq, kahua and fook joint bdae and looking forward to organsing a paintball event at Bottle tree again. Everyone around me seems to be doing well. Or so I thought la. (I not their tapeworm hor)

Then there's weddings. Cousins, friends, HKE bengs etc. I seen too much weddings and attended quite a lot. feeling a bit SIAN if ya noe what I mean. It kinda gets to you in an annoying way when you attended everyone of them and everyone (in courtesy) asked you when's your coming day.

then I have to tell them, even Christopher Lee had to become a lead actor someday in order to marry Fann. In G, I am just a supporting cast, my stardom chance had not manifested yet. Career comes first. Seriously, Career comes first in a Leo guy.

Late night cheonging is starting to get dimmer. Been to ST james for the past 2-3 occasions. and like my once good friend who says in her blog... "everything looked the same after some time"
Its kinda surprising to some if I mentioned I still read her blog. But it becoming a habit and though we gone our separate ways, never seen each other again, but in a way, it connects me somehow?

I think I will be having a short holiday soon (I mentioned this so many times yet no fulfillment of this promise). I guess this have to do sooner or else i really become ah neh chief. Wait a min, I AM ALREADY AH NEH CHIEF. maybe I just had to get away from the nehs for a while, you know, a little of ME-AND-MYSELF time.

Somewhere, where's there plenty of shopping, cheap food, or best, throw in a resort, sandy beach and kickass suite to sleep in. lolx

As to blogging, it had become a monthly affair lolx. I looked at the dates of my blogs and realized they're getting longer and longer prior to the next post. and I dont mean the content, i mean the dates between each other lolx.

OMG, compared to my last blogsite, I realized I MUST BE REALLY FREE last time. (No wonder the paycheck also sounds hollow last time).

Its funny ya know. I was attending Kahua and fook bdae bash recently, and I realized MOST of them are attached. Its like a 'criteria' in order to join 'em for outings lolx. I was there, perhaps there are like 5 pairs of couples ( I shall not name ) and only 1-2 singles. But it is good to see friend of mine picking himself up and embracing a new romance. Like what he says in his msn, " A NEW CHAPTER HAD STARTED"
and indeed, my friend, I feel happy for you.

Oh yes, I found out something interesting from Citibank today. Citibank collaborated with a website in USA to create what we call a "OWN USA ADDRESS" storage plan. Here is how it works, ever been to or heard ppl saying "wah COach is so dirt cheap in USA but so exp here, and we can never get to bring it to SIngapore because Coach Inc. will not open online shopping to Singaporeans as they have Coach stores in Singapore. "

Never will anyone have a problem with this again. This service will enables us (Sporeans) to purchase ANYTHING from USA online, and deliver it straight to your USA address which you created. and you will have a storage place to keep the stuffs until you feel you want to courier it back to sg. It saves on costs and you get quality stuffs from USA w/o lamenting how exp the same thing cost in Sg.

So currently my sis is pretty excited as well. We roamed quite a lot of USA brands. Polo, Coach, Abercombie and fitch, Juicy Coulture etc. See what is cheaper, and bring it to Singapore. ( I was contemplating iphone, but you know la, the sim card lock and no 3G, i betta wait for sg to comes in better version ) but I am pretty sure we will bring in some of those cheaper coach bags.

Today is Florence bdae. Even though we hardly spoke of each other now. I still remember. I do. I never forgets.

So to you, Happy birthday. In HK or mainland. Whereever you are.

So that ends my entry for today. Sounds boring? Cant help it. For a guy who types at 4am in the morning, cant expect him to juggle balls and stand on tightrope and show clowny face yeah?

BE GLAD!