Tot I was dead eh?

I am sorry for the lack of entries lately.

It had been a roller-coaster ride ever since I joined G. It can get very busy and very edgy for me. even when I replied msn during office hrs, it would be quite a prompt yes or no. or even a nudge. Nothing else.

Halloween just over. I tot the guys were at the Halloween party this yr. Never been to one or organized one before. Supposed it would be quite fun to go at least once. I mean, you have to try everything in life at least once yeah?

Days passed very quicky when you are buried in work. Infact, most of the arrangements of the workers is done by me now. I supposed Eric and ken is feeling so eng that they can go holidays liao. But still, I could feel the sense of 'tekaning' in the air. (Tekan means unreasonable bullying la)

I still lunch alone. yup. No one ask me for lunch along. I supposed they are not comfortable enough to dine with me. The only time I had a male indian colleague ask me together for lunch was because.. he forgot to prepare his lunchbox. -_-' (sighZ)

Nothing is smooth recently. I received my 2nd offense ticket for parking illegally near my customer worksite. $50 bucks. Bo bianz pay up. its really testing the system. Was there for barely 40mins and came back to see a nice looking ticket on my windscreen. Told the guys about it, but all they say is 'company wont pay'.

Of course coy wont pay la! I nvr even ask the coy to pay for me in the first place what!

Also, I had 2 'minor' accident on the road today. This is perhaps one of the most 'serious' one I sustained so far. Was travelling along Tanjong Kling road towards Jurong shipyard. Was following a lorry behind. Lorry drove pass the road to revealed a twisted metal rod on the road after passing by. Couldnt stop in time.

SO BAM! Some pieces of my undercarriage plastics fell off the roads. too late. I dont like the sound of that. Stopped at the nearby carpark to assess the damage. Saw another car in front of the bussto, LOOKING AT HIS OWN CAR AS WELL.

I supposed we both went through the stupid rod. Looks quite bad. my exhaust pipe cover was exposed. Cracked up midway. and my protective cover all ruined. I fetch my foreman from Jurong shipyard and he suggested we go to Pioneer road north to get it accessed by our company repairshop.

The repairman jacked up my car and say I could still drive. and suggested that he buy the broken up plastic pieces to fix them on. but due to the fact that the OEM parts need to order, I would have to see how much it would cost.

$145 freaking dollars for 2 pcs of plastics and some screws. Car repair shops really know how to 'carrot' ppl. Somemore, I am working for G, shouldnt I get some discount for that?

:( although I could do away without the repair, coz no one can see the damage anyway. But I chose to go ahead with it. Can you imagine if next time I would to go through the same instances and escape unscathed? I doubt so.

Lucky the plastic covers protects my engine, if kanna engine, I doubt I can even pay up for the repair. :S

I thought I am done away with the bad luck. when tragedy struck twice at the PIE towards KJE. On the expressway, i used the 2nd lane to get to my home. Just turned a bend at 90km/hr, there is one STUPID FUCKING BICYCLE PEDAL ON THE ROAD! too late, couldnt switch lane in time, BAM! my tyres rolled over it.

Cant access the damage at the expressway manz. drove all the way home and finally looked at the tyres. I just changed my tyres and rims less than a mth ago leh! If punctured i would have cried on the spot.

No much damage. No flat tyre. But a totally bad experience today.

Workers were having a free luncheon by G today. We had less projects today hence we could have lunch together. the clerks and other dept staffs are also invited. Bill cost around 200hund bucks for 14 ppl.

Family affair. Old lady was traumatised by the kidnap of the little furball. Old daughter took Mother white to the vet and had it neutered. Old lady was very fond of the little kitty. but ever since it was 'taken away' (actually adopted by a neighbouring lady whom my mom knew), she been complaining non-stop and worried constantly why she never get to adopt it herself.

My little PSP had finally went for the long long overdue revamped. Knew a Lancer forum friend who did modifications of PSP. Paid him $25 to install all the pirated games and even gave him my portable harddrive to download more games inside. all these for $25. Cant wait to see my re-vamped PSP tomorrow when I go down to west coast mac to collect it.

Petrol prices is rising like tsunami recently. I had downgraded my petrol perference from Ron98 to Ron95. cut costs. and despite the $400 subsidy from the company, its still not enough to cover my entire mth usgae. Okay I did pay maybe an extra $50 to cover the cost. but its still manageable. $50 more for one mth of petrol. Just hope not to receive more tics from our 'friendly and efficient' Gahmen.

FInished all the wedding events. did not recieved anymore this year. Maybe december will receive one or two bah. but nothing yet. Baby invites quites some. Most of my NS friends are father stages already. and they are way younger than me manz. hehe

Had received my 2nd mth pay. 4 more months to go before the end of my probation. But its a good time to receive probation. Now we have a public holiday every mth till Feb 2008. I cant take the stress of not taking any MC or any leaves during this period. I MUST GO OVERSEAS WHEN I FINISHED MY PROBATION. need to de-stress.

Think i nagged alot today. So till next time, we shall blog again.

Oh yeah, the bee movie, do you think we could watch it on weekdays? NTUC had offer for bee movie. One tic cost $6.50 and free popcorn combo at Lido 3. Let me know if we could do it on Nov 12 or 13? Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuu

The story of a little cat

I'm going to tell you a little cat story today.

(For some readers whois repulsed by cats and dogs and furries, can exit this blogsite now XD)

This little cat story wasnt planned. I supposed all works of God happens in one way or another around you.

There used to lived an old woman down the streets of Yewtee. Old woman had a rather old daughter who had no job. One day a white mother cat came to their neighbourhood. The 2 kind women took pity on the white mother cat and fed her everyday when she comes around.

and a month later, she gave birth to 5 kitties. 3 are tabbycats (stripped black) and resembles the father. and 2 white ones that looks like her. Old woman and daughter were delighted at the kitties and went down to look at them more.

Old women had a jaded cynical son, who came home late everyday and grumbles about how the world is so harsh out there. almost everyday. well, the very least, as far as the writer is concerned, plenty of grumbles anyway.

So the women was telling the son how cute the kitties was. Son took a look at the living environment of the white mother and her kids.

"I hate to tell you this, I doubt all 5 will lived throughout their young phase"

and the son promptly left.

Old lady and her daughter refused to believe the crap he said, and continue their feedings and playing.

Then the thunderstorms and rain came. The shelter which the white mother and her kitties happens to be in a DRAIN. those normal ordinary covered up steel meshed drain with concrete. The water came in pouring at them through the meshed roof, and the water came in through their little furry feet.

White mother took her kids one by one via her mouth and took 'em to the covered carpark. and those kitties resides beneath some unsuspecting car and wait for the rain to stop.

Unfortunately the rain never did stop. but the car had to move.

So one of the rainy day, the cynical son came back from work and saw an upsetting sight. One little white furball was dead. Her neck twisted to one side, tongue sticking out. pretty dead to him.

He called the so-called 'mother and daughter duo' and told them what happened. and what did the old daughter says?

"aiyoh die so terrible ah? I dun wanna go see!"

Son: " but you been taking care of them wat! shouldnt you give her a decent burial or something?"

Old Daughter: " Aiyoh! Mai la! -shut the phone-

So right now, I just want to tell you readers something. its okay to take care of strays. but when your affections isnt enough to deal with the grief, jolly well leave them for dead. and I literally mean it.

Many a times, the rain came, the chivarious duo would come armed with a pail to dish out the poor kitties at the verge of drowning/ flowing elsewhere/ trauma. its probably like a full time job. and mother white only had one mouth to catch 5 frisky little furries. (ok make that four now)

Everyday the son came home from the harsh workplace, he would listen to tales of the little kitties and mother white almost everyday. it provides an avenue from the work but leaves him disturbed. There's still one more threat coming.

-People-

The neighbourhood kids had also noticed the young breedlings. you know kids, some duno how to take care of animals, some are downright cruel. you name it, you had it. the super duo again, have to be a 'jaga' for the kitties. One or 2 kids would loiter near the hole where they gathered, you be sure the super duo will be down there telling them not to touch it.

how long was this to last? not long I supposed.

So one day, all 3 kitties disappeared. completely. leaving the mother white looking quite sad actually. One little grey furball and her white mummy.

and then there is only 1.

and the cynical son finally spoke.

'this is the last miracle in this harsh harsh world. and it doesnt help that its just a cat. People like me is dying in the society, and you expect a cat to live up normally, you adopt it. '

and he softened his tone.

'and make sure she dun die.'

Fantastic duo is absorbed in their own world. Or so, he reckoned. the feeding still continues while the white mom mops over her missing kitties. and the little kitty was pampered and loved by the duo.

So today he came home and saw Old lady sitting at the porch looking quite sad, staring at the little kitty.

Son: ' whats the matter?'

Old woman: 'she fell 3 levels from the stairs and landed at the first floor. now I dun even know if she is okay, she just sits there and looking so frightened. and my daughter tells me she is alright and went to bathe!"

Son: ' you mean to say the little kitten fell from the third storey and your daughter say she is fine? IS YOUR DAUGHTER FUCKING CRAZY!??"

-Daughter emerges from the door-

Son: ' you telling your mum that this little furball is gonna be fine falling from the third floor?'

Daughter curtly replied : ' ar bo you wanna take it to the vet issit?"

-Sometimes you cant blame cynical old son wanting to kill his entire family for a reason or 2-

Son took a look at the kitty. she lookes seriously terrified. she was shivering and she had difficulty walking. probably broken a rib or 2. and she stopped meowing.

and then he spoke.

'She needs to be looked after, for a day at least. observe if she is okay. '

but fantastic duo, leaves mother white and the kitty to fend for themselves.

AT this moment of time, the writer stopped writing. sighed a deep sigh of uneasiness. and carry on writing. ..

People, loving animals. is a virtue. admirable. sometimes, our gestures can be helpful, or it can lead them straight to their graves. fate had not included a lot of people or animals in his welfare plans, only the fittest survive.

I do not know what will happen to the kittens. But i do seen what the kitties bring. smile to faces. joy to the soul. (for some) Even for a jaded cynical son, the little furball did gave him a little grin.

GOd I do hope the little furball gonna be alright when he sees it tomorrow.

-So anyway, end of tale-

Job is terrible! I happened to have a boss whois a ticking timebomb!

It happened one afternoon when I realized my petrol is sinking fast. I reckoned I turned a corner from my workplace to get it filled. So at the junction, my boss saw me turning left (to the kiosk) when I should heading straight to G.

I received a call from him. He was desperate and probably frantic.

Eric: "hey I saw you turning left! Where you going?!!"

Me: "Eric, I was going to get my petrol filled, I am losing gas."

Eric: " You bette know what you doing! No funny business okaY! (he means ppl going for coffeebreaks unessary, or label snake-eaters)

Me: "Yes, I am going to get my petrol pumped. " - I calmly replied-

Eric: " You better make sure ok! You're on probation and you better know what is best for you! (I hate this when ppl dun trust me) Rem the time you went loyang , you took 1 hr to reach there! I haben talk to you about it! Why so slow! Why your car so slow! "

Me: " That time it was RAINING CATS AND DOGS AT THE TPE! Ah heng was inside my car with me! You can ask him! (The distance from Tuas - Loyang is like west to east!) (You added in all the traffic lights and heavy rain of course you will reach there in an hr la!" )

you know the rest of the conversation, i cant rem exactly. whether its too boring or I dun wanna remmeber it. It was a troubling day for me that day.

Support at work also is minimal. Haiz... the clerks also a bit bochup. suppose to be menial paperworks also ask me to do. I doing costing already head big. Getting workdone report signed already troubling. whats with billing? Gave them a file with all the relevant documents inside and ask them to bill. they say,

"NO MR east, YOU MUST TAKE OUT THE PO, the WORKDONE AND some mambojumbo papers, use paperclip on it then you submit for billing ok'

-_-' (I dun have so much fucking time OKAY!)

Opening job files also hard. there's this lady who probably had menses whole year round. everytime i come over to open job file, she will be using her computer and looking at the job book. CAN I USE IT?

NO, I updating sorry.

fUCking fine!

I can hardly smile or laugh in there. only time I get to reply something is when big towkay walks in and ask if I can cope, I say meekly, "yeah no problem.'

and lunch. even more depressing. The ppl in my dept likes to sit in Kenn car and he will be zipping the roads with the clerks and gone for lunch. no one ask me if i wanna lunch with them. and I usually eats alone opp the road of my factory. and walks back.

SIGHZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZz

Am i so ... UNFAVOURABLE?

I dun have the answer for that.

On to social life, had gone for 3 weddings in a row this month. and you can imagine how broke I am. its like paying to eat in SHANGRI-LA at THE LINE everytime I went for wedding but only get a 8 course dinner. Not that I am counting of course :P

One last wedding at the end of this month, ppl around my age is hitching pretty fastttt.

Will be on course on Friday. Another gruelling 8 hrs, well, at least I dun have to go back to G and see those... ppl.. i called.. colleagues. I really hope to be treated nicely.. and NOT LIKE AN ALIEN! grrrr

No more clubbing for quite sometime now. St James send me 2 invites for Halloween party. Only time I get some private conversation is DURING MSN. and I dun even get to see them face to face. and it been quite a while since I had a face-to-face with anybody. really.

and most of the time my face is on the pillow. and going to work the next day.

think i am degrading into a FULL TIME WORKAHOLIC. I dun freaking have time to read newspapers.

BUT ON THE OTHER HAND, Lancerians seems to have a nice outlook on my baby "N". CCK team leader, here i come! XD at least I am going in the right direction with my car club.

That is... at the very least.

So much blogging for today. till we blog again.

The Invitation

I received a pretty odd invitation from my ex-company today.

It brings me back to the conversation when my ex-GM called me on the phone whilst on the road few days ago. Darren always the joking type and I didnt take his entire conversation seriously that evening. He says he is quitting PSM. (The head of an office quitting the job impromtu, suddenly, is seriously fishy)

But after the 'odd invitation' came from the Finance mgr,Dexter today via msn. My suspicion take a U-turn on Darren's words.

PSM lost a good leader today. So Darren did tender. I dont understand. and to add to the woes on the loss, Daniel (best salesperson and older generation snr sales engr) announced that he is leaving as well.

It was an impact readers might not understand, but let me just say that PSM is built mainly on Daniel's sales tactics and Darren's glib. Leelee and Adrian is good, but not as good as those 2. Even though Daniel had a rotten repute as a gambler, womaniser, but his job and his sales skills, none can compare.

So you smart readers will understand what I am driving at now.

- PSM asked for my return -

Below is some of the conversations I had with my Finance mgr on msn today... (ok my msn nick might sounds silly but its one of those days (PIAKS!)

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and the band go on... said (MY finance mgr msn nick):
Hi
and the band go on... said:
it's me again

Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) (NEED NO INTRODUCTION WHOSE NICK IS THIS)said:
hi dex

and the band go on... says:
want to hear the latest PSM news?

Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) says:
ok

and the band go on... says:
Daniel has tendered too

Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) says:
huh? What happen?

and the band go on... says:
that's why I'm here to persude you again

Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) says:
why he tender
Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) says:
he joining competitor issit

and the band go on... says:
he got another offer

Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) says:
no wonder

and the band go on... says:
but duno how true
and the band go on... says:
yes
and the band go on... says:
may be joining competitor

Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) says:
with his experience to join a new line, highly unlikely

and the band go on... says:
so, are you interested to re-join?

Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) says:
dex, i am happy here la

and the band go on... says:
aren't you unhappy in PSM?

Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) says:
i am like 5 mths more to replace the asst sales mgr there
Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) says:
PSM taught me alot
Invited to Launch of Innovation Centre marine Offshore & technology @ NP 24th Oct. (eat snake whole day + bio chiobus time XD) says:
but i dun think i can go back

and the band go on... says:
if you dun mind to share what is the package you are getting?

and the band go on... says:
let me see whether $$$ can lure you back

and the band go on... says:
if you are back, we'll probably get you to run the entire Malaysia
and the band go on... says:
JB & Penang

and the band go on... says:
that's the same package Darren is offering few days back

and the band go on... says:
hope you can give it a think over the weekend

and the band go on... says:
I hope to give you a attractive counter offer

and the band go on... says:
gtg now

and the band go on... says:
talk to you again
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I was quite disturbed. Using money isnt the really ideal way for me to get some place. but i do who is vulnerable to money right now (lolx) and maybe i can intro him to go PSM instead. but too bad he isnt a sales person. :P HOR BAN!?

I am worried about what will happen to my ex-company. the impact it will have on the support people, like Owyong, suhaily, Jo. Adrian and Leelee are they strong enough to withstand the competition in the coming months? years? When Daniel joined a new coy, will he not reveal and take all his customers away? (YES I NOE U GUYS THINKS ITS UNETHICAL, BUT ITS NOT ILLEGAL) or perhaps Darren joined another fastening line, it will be BAD BAD news for PSM.

it is indeed a sad day for me. I am thinking if I am lucky to leave before this happens. Maybe Fate does dealt me a good hand sometimes.

As far as I am concerned, as an ex-employee of PSM, it will be disappointing to know what is happening currently and if there is any way I can help them, I will. but going back to the old line, my heart is dead.

and in my last post I talked about my 'summary trial' at the CMPB for missing IPPT. BOY AM I GLAD I AM NOT FINED FOR THIS TIME ROUND!

the disciplinary officer is also a NS man, he asked me if I knew why am I summoned here. I told him because of my 'neligence' due to the job and stuffs and I pleads for leniency on his sentence.

He was pleased that I am quite courteous to him, he checked my records and found them clean and this is first incident. he decided not to fine me. ($50 bucks for your info, if fined)

So I had to booked another RT session for the new workyear which will be happening in Jan'08. *shrugz* No big deal anyway. I still owe the govt 6 more yrs of reservists anyway.

My car mileage is extremely high I am afraid. PPl with black license plate ( and i mean normal ppl with normal routes) will maybe clock about 5K in 3-4mths. I clocked 5K in less than 3 mths. and NOW MY 10K is around the corner! I counted my first car arrival is around July, now, Oct, WHICH MEANS I CLOCKED an ADDITIONAL 5K WITHIN A MONTH! HOLY SMOKE! did I drive that much or the mileage meter is spoilt?

Being in sales line is quite terrifying. esp local sales. I am still getting used. and the regular pumping of petrol.. last time i was pumping like every 3 days once. I found myself pumping 3-4times per week now. (EWWWWWW)

I am doing some counting if the petrol allowance is even enough to pay for my whole mth consumption. (1 time around 40bucks + half tank) I figured out if I have less than 10 slips of receipt at around that amount, I would have enough to pay thr the company expenses. Looking at the situation, I might face some serious deficit.

not to mention the 10K servicing, Ihave decided NOT to go back to cycle & carriage anymore. the last 2 visits was because of the free-labour. Now I will go to aftermarket servicing shops which is relatively cheaper. the trick of course, is to identify the meticulous ones.

and Lancer club came in handy with reputable servicing centres i can refer on.

Social life is still zero at the moment. I nvr been to st james since Aug. or pubbing, or touching any alcohol. Wedding dinners been attending like siao though. even a simple dinner with friends. I duno, no calls coming in? lolx.

-did i lost all my friends? XD -

Saturday is coming again. Will be tinting my car tomorrow! thinking of a cooling interior makes me excited. and they are giving me free PPT (Paint protection treatment voucher) after the whole thing. tinsy cool is the place if you drivers are interested. At Kaki Bukit tomorrow.

Was browsing through the car accessories website in Thailand. THE PRIcES IS unbelivable. More reasons to visit thailand I guess when I confirmed.

anyone wants to go BKK with me? XD

Ookay gtg, talk to you guys again!