Heydays ...

hey·day (hd) KEY

NOUN:

The period of greatest popularity, success, or power; prime.

Do you still remember your heydays?

I remembered mine.

10 yrs ago?? its an awful lot to remember and reminisce.

I was sitting with a good fried of mine in a coffeeshop just now. we were re-counting our heydays.

Both of us, already in our 30's. slightly blading.. potbellied and aging as we speaks.

I used to think I had used our youth wisely. but on contrast, I actually wasted it w/o much thought for the future. I lived each day as it comes, and cherish every present moments.

I used to think dating 2-3 gals at the same time was cool. Back then it wasnt much of a trouble meeting up different ppl at different days of the weeks. then again, thinking back, I wished I could have spend more time on my studies rather than play the romance game.

Friend was taken aback by my opinions. Its as if I seems to have aged beyond my years to come out with this kinda thinking.

" You used to be a guy who couldnt care less? what happened now? "

I think I am fading. Slowly fading away from the crowd. the crowd I used to adored and held them in esteem. Now? I could picture myself pottering about in the house, watching pirated DVD's, wash my car, get to work, sleep.

I was @ Dragonfly couple of weeks before. the moment when I entered, I feel like getting out.

The music, which I used to adored, was blaring and loud.
the alcohol that I drank, tasted like bitter fluid which makes me groggly.

Like a friend I remembered her saying this in her blog sometimes back ,
"Everything seems the same after a while"

I think she's right.

So i told my friend at the kopitiam, "now what?"

" We passed the prime of our lives so fast we could hardly noticed. and now, we are neither here or there. We're sitting down here sipping our coffee, and its the most 'exciting' thing we could ever done in Singapore right now. "

He was commenting I was being cynical. He thinks I spend too much time on my work to enjoy the finer things in life.

I could have felt jaded. who doesnt? I dont believe in miracles. If there is one, I should have seen it. Counter-cynism like Susan Boyle in "Britains's got talent" .

So in order to cheer me up, he proposed we spend the night away @ Firefly today in Marriot's hotel. "Another drinking session."

I never been there, so I agreed.
We were there within an hr, with another male friends. Goesh , the club have many oldies like me. Some even older. Dancing away to Cantonese hits.

I was pretty amused when an older woman came up to us to get an entry pass. mY friend was a member, and she was held up by the security and call out to my friend.

"Hey you ! I remember you. we used to drink black label at the table few weeks ago? "

My friend didnt know her. but since he had membership, he let her in anyway.

I do not know her for sure, I only been here my first time in Firefly. She came to our table, flirtatiously. My friend ordered abucket of Heiniken and she took one immediately.

I kinda frowned and think this woman is getting too much with our tolerance. Friend didnt give a damn about it. She disappeared for 2 hrs before coming back and talk to my friend again.

IN the end, one of the security spotted her and requested that she escorted out from the club.

Later the security came back and asked me if I knew her. I gave him a 'NO' and he promptly disappeared.

Minutes later the manager of the floor came to us, and explained that this lady was a 'hooker' and was kinda 'famous' in this place.

I immediately laughed out loud and my friend was equally amused.

I had an interesting nite and before we parted ways, I told my friend.

"Milk, our heydays are indeed over. "

" we thought we still have the charm, but in the end, it just a hooker. "

That nite, I drove back with a grin, and thus produce this entry for those who thinks times are always on their side...

think again.

是专业还是愚蠢？

有个同事Z，在公司打拼了几年。
成绩平平，但也不是省油的灯。
有进取心，对同事关心，对上司更是唯命事从，任劳任怨，为公司拼搏。

最近内部整组，跑出了个空缺。
执行部管理层。 很有发挥空间而负有潜力的职位。

当然，专属职位落在该部门的Z，最能胜任有嘉。大伙看好他会授任该职。

偏偏出现了个程咬金。

公司销售部总裁，对Z没舍么垂青，分复该单位的经理，把空缺转向外头市场，从中挑选人材任职。

Z听闻此事，默默无闻，向外表态会“乐观处事，静观其变。”

那天终于到了，公司请来了个小他一岁的“上司”复任此职。

Z带新上司认识各部门同事时，可各部门文员见到该新人，不言不语。强颜欢笑。匆匆带过。


当然，这事件也触发了些关心Z的同事， 拉了Z到一旁，前去安慰Z。

“公司瞎了吗？”
“老总真是不器重人！”
“天呀！他对公司内部一窍不通！论资质差你远了！”

但，Z笑着答：“给他点时间，也许他有卧虎藏龙的本能也说不定！”

A：我说你啊！就是不会为自己打算！眼巴巴看着比你小的上司坐在你头上，还帮他说话!"
B：对呀！真笨！

Z：但公司必定有他的道理。。。

B：公司！公司！这就是公司给你的“答复！”还傻愣愣的！
A：你花在办公室的加班如果算费用的话，这三年你还可多买一辆轿车！

Z：但我要尊重公司的决定啊。。。

A&B: 我为你感到不值。。。 你拼命的公司，和你帮的要生要死的上司。。。 心寒！

Z：。。。 别说那么多啦！吃饭啦！

那天，Z茶饭不思。

消息传开了。越多人走向Z大表不值。Z的心情更是难安。更是难受。

Z越来越茅盾。心想：“我错了吗？”“我该只为我将来打算打算吗？这样做会不会很自私？”

新人是无辜的。被卷进这风波真为难了他。

早晚，有人嘴巴痒了，当着他面前说落了口，齐不是很难堪？


读者们：
如果你是Z，你会有何反应？
我想听听你们的意见。