珊瑚海

好久不说话。只是没话说。
今天大家听听歌。
让这首歌反映我的心情吧？好吗？




Not sure if the links works. ( Here's the URL )
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZxOrNt8nsrE


珊瑚海

词:方文山曲:周杰伦
男:海平面远方开始阴霾
悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上始终挟带
一抹浅浅的无奈
女:你用唇语说你要离开
男:心不在
男女:那难过无声慢了下来
男女:汹涌潮水你听明白
不是浪而是泪海
男:转身离开分手说不出来女:你有话说不出来
男女:海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女:我们的爱差异一直存在
女:回不来
男:风中尘埃竟累积成伤害女:等待竟累积成伤害
男女:转身离开分手说不出来
男女:蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
男:当初彼此不够成熟坦白女:你有我的不够成熟坦白
女:不应该
男女:热情不再笑容勉强不来
男女:爱深埋珊瑚海
男:毁坏的沙雕如何重来
有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切结束太快
你说你无法释怀
女:贝壳里隐藏什么期待
男:等花儿开
男女:我们也已经无心再猜
女男:脸上海风咸咸的爱
尝不出还有未来
男:转身离开分手说不出来女:你有话说不出来
男女:海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
男女:我们的爱差异一直存在
女:回不来
男:风中尘埃竟累积成伤害女:等待竟累积成伤害
男女:转身离开分手说不出来
男女:蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
男:当初彼此不够成熟坦白女:你有我的不够成熟坦白
女:不应该
男:热情不在笑容勉强不来女:你的笑容勉强不来
男女:爱深埋珊瑚海

Lasik

Finally after years of contemplating and researching and waiting...

I have decided to get my eyes corrected. This coming friday that is.

I knew Lasik was the fad these couple of years. having been through the pre-examination screenings few years back as well. But the rates were exceptionally high. being in lowly paid ex-company, I have absolutely no intention of getting the treatment done up in a jiffy.

Am I feeling nervous? Yes.
but do I look forward to it? Absolutely.

I was contemplating Singapore National Eye Care Centre (SNEC) but somehow TIm my colleague managed to talk me outta it. having done his lasik in what may seems to be the cheapest rate in Singapore.

I found clearvision.com.sg . A small quaint clinic behind Lucky Plaza founded by Dr, Tony Ho and he works in Mount E as a surgeon too. (FYI, mount E is next to the clinic too )

Dr. Tony Ho had been in this line for almost 15yrs, so lets just say I am in safe hands being operated by him.

Again, I went through the pre-exams by clearvision staff. I met Grace whom wrote to me the other day and she booked an apptment for me. I went for the night apptment, FYI clearvision is catering night lasik , first of its kind in SIngapore. FOr ppl who wanted the treatment after office hrs and reduced exposure to glares in the day.

But the fees is $100 more as usual of course. which I immediately declined and opt for day surgery.

The pre-exams didnt give me good news. As in pricing wise. it wasnt a good news. I have a special case which Dr Ho found out for me. My 'lazy eyes' syndrome didnt rendered me a suitable candidate for usual lasik procedure. (which is the blade surgery )

My cornea thickness which was a mere 480 microns. Normal people have a cornea thickness of ard 520 microns. So hence, I have a thin cornea. which the blade will cut almost 150 microns off the cornea. which didnt have much left after the incision. hence Dr Ho says its either Epi-lasik or none at all.

Epi-lasik is the newest technology for ppl with thin corneas. it doesnt use blade but instead uses a laser beam to burn off the cornea thickness. results is better and cleaner than using blade, but I will have to be on reviews longer than patients who went thr the blade surgery.

and I will have to go through a longer healing time.

All these for the price of.. being spec-less.

I remembered wearing my first pair of specs to Sch during the last few mths before my PSLE. Friends never really knew me enough in my specky look before we all were send off to different sec sch and we nvr saw each other again.

Wow that was 19 yrs ago! From a teen, to a 20's something, to a freshie 30's. I been changing specs, investing in contact lenses. had infections with contacts, switch to disposable contacts. bought new frames, changed frames. got a military black framed geeky specs which pull me through in my army life.

Its time to say gdbye to them. those memories are good. some are bad. I remembered kissing my first gf in my specs and we never managed to kiss right before I was wearing such a geeky spec and it kinda blocked our position lolx.

sighz.. those were good times.

its time to end my specky days and embrace the brighter, clearer future lolz

Will be back to update on my post-op review. stay tuned!

EQ vs IQ

I find that I can be really IQ savvy at times.

At the expenses of my EQ that is.

It not entirely a bad thing to be MIND CONSCIOUS instead of EMOTIONAL CONSCIOUS.

For eg, high IQ can make u work efficiently, smarter, knows the rules of the works, and turn you into a workaholic. In that way, only colleagues will turn to you for help and advices, while you wont have to bat an eyelid.

On the other hand, you might think tt colleague is nothing but a pile of shit if they wanna exploit you to the max.

In life, one cant always win.

I am one, who shut out my EQ at work. I mean, ESPECIALLY at work. Putting emotions in working area only makes you look like a wimpy worker.
Thus nothing below that I could think of;
No crying in toilet when reprimianded by boss. No staring into empty spaces when meet with dilemma.
No sudden 'urgent leave' when everything/one seems to be against you.
No "tai ji" .

I always think being confident at work is a good thing. Boss wont tick you. ppl will ask you for help, and trust you makes good decison for them. but... raising IQ level.. makes me think about one incident which I wished I could have handled it tactfully.

I was on a week long supervisor course 2 weeks back.
When I returned, a small incident came to my ear.
the logistics gal whom I always teased had an ailing mother who is in her 4th stage of her cancer.
Everyone chipped in to help her out with the medical expenses as her mum is not a Sporean.
So the moment I handled tt piece of namelist, I went all out to get all the cash from my own department. including my ah nehs.
Even forking out from my own wallet.

I took half a day to do all these, all because I believed in efficiency.
I think others will take longer, and the gal is really a gd colleague of mine, I find tt I must do it. (dont ask me why )

So we managed to get around S$2K from all the people in the office plus the workshop.

I passed the finalized details to the other female colleague who started out this list, M and asked to pass to the poor gal.

M was glad i returned with an envelope full of cash.

M: " oh great! I think this money will come in handy for her "

Me: " No it wont. "

M: " why is that so? "

Me: " Getting the money is easy, but it wont cure her mum. Patient suffering from final stages of cancer who uses the money, is only to relieve the pain, pays the morphine bills, dont expect a miracle cure. " - I said matter-of-factly -

M: " oh... "

I smiled. and walks off.

Darn, I wish I could lower my IQ and raise my EQ.

But @ work... I am another person altogether.

So that's another exciting episode of east and his daily life.

See you peeps next time.

Note: I find the title picture very interesting. It shows tt IQ is the tip of the iceberg and EQ is the actual formation of a person. Penny for your tots?

Kids these days...

I must admit, I'm the typical guy that had not been harnassed with fatherly instinct as yet...

So it is no surprise, I chose to hang out with single friends, whom spend most of their times in 'no worries' places like clubs, pubs, bars and such. Hence, the topic of marriage, family, kids, nvr seems to exist in my world.

These recent yrs, as I grew older, my friends got married, engaged, booked a flat, registering their ROM etc.. I am still stuck btw my old world and the new one tt inevitably will come straight in my face... slowly and gradually..

So it is one of these social gatherings, my colleagues brought their friends for dinner, and i happened to join in. So most of my colleagues is married, but around my age, and their kids is about.. perhaps 3 or 5 yrs old.

So one of my colleague S, brought another sec sch frend of hers along, her name is SY. and with her, a 12 yr old boy, whom took a liking to me immediately.

Pardon me for being observant, but SY seems too young to be a mum. she's like 26+ and her kid is 12? So i was told later from S, that SY gave birth to that little kid, BB when she was 15...

Well... I have no qualms or criticism about teens who gave birth during their sec sch days. I mean, we read abt it in newspaper or perhaps seen magazine column like auntie agony, so here standing right in front of me, is a living example.

Firstly i tot... "oh maybe the dad is some hormone charged up boys who just wanna jerk off and f**k off kind*

the typical scenario where the boy and the gal is too young to be responsible for each other.

then i realized SY have a sad story.
Her bf was a Msian tt time, and probbaly 17-18, had a huge quarrel during her pregnancy, came to S'pore on a motor to look for her , 6 mths into her pregnancy, meet into an accident @ the customs.. and never return.

*sighs*

this kinda life story nvr fails to makes me wet in the eyes..

So I took an immediate affirmity on the kid. Did some magic tricks, make him laugh. told him some jokes. He's so clingly to me at the end of the day.

Even though he call me 'uncle' *COUGH* most of the time. I guess I cant keep telling myself i am "KORKOR" rite. FINE.

so SY must have been thr hell, to lost the man she loves, and brings up the kid as a single mum... I totally respect her.

For the past 12 yrs, spend her attention on the kid, nvr on herself. So S cheekily brought the kid and her to the function, wanna introduce to the rest of the 'bachelor figures' there. lolx

I think the rest of the bachelors seems to backed off, seeing her carrying a bundle of 'burden' . but for me, I was trying to play with the kid and nvr take much notice of SY anyway.

So at the end of the day, we were having dinner, the kid wanted me to sit with him, and gave me a sulky face if i nvr sat with him. I grinned and obliged his request.

So SY was sitting opp me, and the kid was sitting with me. then suddenly, in front of S, and some of my colleagues, he shouted; " Mummy mummy! I liked Uncle very much! Can you marry him please so I can take him home with me!"

-The entire table laughed, including myself-

SY was red-faced and told BB to shut up and eat his dinner.

seeing that the his request doesnt work, he says ' can you be my godpa!?"

I was shaking my head.. "No No.... Uncle is bz with work, no time to see you in the future how? "

and he bit my arm, so I have to say " OK OK!!! "

then he hugged me the whole dinner time, and kept asking me for my msn, facebook, email address... -_- which i gave of course.

I told him to write me an email, as I am invisble most of the times, friends knew i am the invisible man anyway.

If he faced any trouble in sch, can write to me. I will reply him.
that nite, i was in FB, i added him, and he immediately chat up with me ' Godpapa!'

I was so amused.

He even asked me to visit me at his house someday. but I told him I will consider. I heard its quite a cramp in SY house. the grandparents the aunites all squeezing in a tiny 3 room flat.

Why am I tell you guys all these anyway?

The morale of this blog, is not about courtship, or love btw an impossible relationship.

Its about a man , who spend most of his life, running away from commitments and responsibiility, to find a kid, who barely knows him for 24 hrs, and calls him 'god dad'.

It kinda lights up the gloomy part of my heart. Amuses me with a silly grin every time i tink of BB.

So before I end my entry, I would like to wish
BB: Be good to your mum, study hard, make her proud and be a better person.

SY: you have a good kid, you brought him up well, its not an easy route for someone so young, gambatte!

Goodnite folks.

Heydays ...

hey·day (hd) KEY

NOUN:

The period of greatest popularity, success, or power; prime.

Do you still remember your heydays?

I remembered mine.

10 yrs ago?? its an awful lot to remember and reminisce.

I was sitting with a good fried of mine in a coffeeshop just now. we were re-counting our heydays.

Both of us, already in our 30's. slightly blading.. potbellied and aging as we speaks.

I used to think I had used our youth wisely. but on contrast, I actually wasted it w/o much thought for the future. I lived each day as it comes, and cherish every present moments.

I used to think dating 2-3 gals at the same time was cool. Back then it wasnt much of a trouble meeting up different ppl at different days of the weeks. then again, thinking back, I wished I could have spend more time on my studies rather than play the romance game.

Friend was taken aback by my opinions. Its as if I seems to have aged beyond my years to come out with this kinda thinking.

" You used to be a guy who couldnt care less? what happened now? "

I think I am fading. Slowly fading away from the crowd. the crowd I used to adored and held them in esteem. Now? I could picture myself pottering about in the house, watching pirated DVD's, wash my car, get to work, sleep.

I was @ Dragonfly couple of weeks before. the moment when I entered, I feel like getting out.

The music, which I used to adored, was blaring and loud.
the alcohol that I drank, tasted like bitter fluid which makes me groggly.

Like a friend I remembered her saying this in her blog sometimes back ,
"Everything seems the same after a while"

I think she's right.

So i told my friend at the kopitiam, "now what?"

" We passed the prime of our lives so fast we could hardly noticed. and now, we are neither here or there. We're sitting down here sipping our coffee, and its the most 'exciting' thing we could ever done in Singapore right now. "

He was commenting I was being cynical. He thinks I spend too much time on my work to enjoy the finer things in life.

I could have felt jaded. who doesnt? I dont believe in miracles. If there is one, I should have seen it. Counter-cynism like Susan Boyle in "Britains's got talent" .

So in order to cheer me up, he proposed we spend the night away @ Firefly today in Marriot's hotel. "Another drinking session."

I never been there, so I agreed.
We were there within an hr, with another male friends. Goesh , the club have many oldies like me. Some even older. Dancing away to Cantonese hits.

I was pretty amused when an older woman came up to us to get an entry pass. mY friend was a member, and she was held up by the security and call out to my friend.

"Hey you ! I remember you. we used to drink black label at the table few weeks ago? "

My friend didnt know her. but since he had membership, he let her in anyway.

I do not know her for sure, I only been here my first time in Firefly. She came to our table, flirtatiously. My friend ordered abucket of Heiniken and she took one immediately.

I kinda frowned and think this woman is getting too much with our tolerance. Friend didnt give a damn about it. She disappeared for 2 hrs before coming back and talk to my friend again.

IN the end, one of the security spotted her and requested that she escorted out from the club.

Later the security came back and asked me if I knew her. I gave him a 'NO' and he promptly disappeared.

Minutes later the manager of the floor came to us, and explained that this lady was a 'hooker' and was kinda 'famous' in this place.

I immediately laughed out loud and my friend was equally amused.

I had an interesting nite and before we parted ways, I told my friend.

"Milk, our heydays are indeed over. "

" we thought we still have the charm, but in the end, it just a hooker. "

That nite, I drove back with a grin, and thus produce this entry for those who thinks times are always on their side...

think again.

是专业还是愚蠢？

有个同事Z，在公司打拼了几年。
成绩平平，但也不是省油的灯。
有进取心，对同事关心，对上司更是唯命事从，任劳任怨，为公司拼搏。

最近内部整组，跑出了个空缺。
执行部管理层。 很有发挥空间而负有潜力的职位。

当然，专属职位落在该部门的Z，最能胜任有嘉。大伙看好他会授任该职。

偏偏出现了个程咬金。

公司销售部总裁，对Z没舍么垂青，分复该单位的经理，把空缺转向外头市场，从中挑选人材任职。

Z听闻此事，默默无闻，向外表态会“乐观处事，静观其变。”

那天终于到了，公司请来了个小他一岁的“上司”复任此职。

Z带新上司认识各部门同事时，可各部门文员见到该新人，不言不语。强颜欢笑。匆匆带过。


当然，这事件也触发了些关心Z的同事， 拉了Z到一旁，前去安慰Z。

“公司瞎了吗？”
“老总真是不器重人！”
“天呀！他对公司内部一窍不通！论资质差你远了！”

但，Z笑着答：“给他点时间，也许他有卧虎藏龙的本能也说不定！”

A：我说你啊！就是不会为自己打算！眼巴巴看着比你小的上司坐在你头上，还帮他说话!"
B：对呀！真笨！

Z：但公司必定有他的道理。。。

B：公司！公司！这就是公司给你的“答复！”还傻愣愣的！
A：你花在办公室的加班如果算费用的话，这三年你还可多买一辆轿车！

Z：但我要尊重公司的决定啊。。。

A&B: 我为你感到不值。。。 你拼命的公司，和你帮的要生要死的上司。。。 心寒！

Z：。。。 别说那么多啦！吃饭啦！

那天，Z茶饭不思。

消息传开了。越多人走向Z大表不值。Z的心情更是难安。更是难受。

Z越来越茅盾。心想：“我错了吗？”“我该只为我将来打算打算吗？这样做会不会很自私？”

新人是无辜的。被卷进这风波真为难了他。

早晚，有人嘴巴痒了，当着他面前说落了口，齐不是很难堪？


读者们：
如果你是Z，你会有何反应？
我想听听你们的意见。

Seen & Heard

Will be putting up some of those short entries I overheard (eavesdropped) from ppl around me ...

- At the cinema counter, buying the tickets for << Marley & Me >>

Couple in front of me...

GF: (looking at bf) Dear, Is there any other dog shows other than << Marley & me >> ?

BF: Yup there is... (Looking intenty at the screen)

Me: ( I was thinking if he will be sugesting << Hotel for dogs >> the next available one, but not screened yet at that week... )

GF: Which is? *eyes wide with excitment*

BF: nehhhhhhhh! Slumdog Millionaire. *Pointing at the screen options*

Me: *GUFFAWS*